Just getting thoughts out...

There is so much going on lately. No. That's not true. How do I say this?

There is a lot going on inside of me lately...in my head, my heart, my spirit. I feel like I'm at the edge of a precipice, just looking for the right place to jump off. And I know that when I do jump, it's going to be amazing. God is going to hold me up and guide me to the spot where He wants me to land.

But, now...now, I am overwhelmed. Uncertain. Seeking. There are so many opportunities. I realize that it's not about open doors and new possibilities. There will always be doors that are wide open, slightly ajar or firmly closed...the position of the door does not necessarily indicate the will of God for me. Just because it's an open door doesn't mean it's the door I should enter; at the same time, a closed door could be an indication that I'm just not ready to move in that direction. And I know my capabilities...I have the potential to excel at any number of things.

So where does that leave me? I need to find out where God is at work around me...to prayerfully seek guidance and confirmation of where He would have me to join Him. And I need to find my passion--to discover just what lights my fire. I'm learning. But it's a process. One that will never end.

I used to have so many dreams. But I have yielded them up, one by one. I don't want that for myself. I want to recapture those dreams. To explore them. To make them reality.

Fall is quickly approaching...my favorite time of year...I need to get outside, to walk through the woods, to step on the crisp leaves, to lean against a tree for a while and dream.